Ok ... this is a video you must watch because it is absolutely hysterical and we have ALL done it before. Ok, well I haven't had the NEW love text messages in a while ... but there are some points in this video that you do no matter how long you have been in a relationship! I know all you women out there know what I am talking about. I know you'll enjoy!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Life
Do you ever stop and wonder whose life you are living? I had the weirdest feeling today... another minor break down (I find that I am very good at these). This one was truly minor and I got over it very quickly. I got up from my desk at work and just went to the gym. I had to get away. I was sitting there, and people were asking me for the most ridiculous things at work, and they were coming at me from all different directions, I just couldn't take it anymore. I asked myself ... seriously, what am I doing?
Do you ever step outside yourself and look inside and wonder, what am I doing here? I love my life, I am so very happy in it. I really feel very fulfilled in so many areas of my personal life. But sometimes I wonder if I am happy and fulfilled, but living someone else's life. Like, I'm not really doing what I want in terms of a career. Sometimes I find myself committing to things both personally and professionally while at the same time thinking, I don't want to do that! How do you stop that? Is this just part of being an adult ... or is it still early enough to break out of this pattern?
Do you ever step outside yourself and look inside and wonder, what am I doing here? I love my life, I am so very happy in it. I really feel very fulfilled in so many areas of my personal life. But sometimes I wonder if I am happy and fulfilled, but living someone else's life. Like, I'm not really doing what I want in terms of a career. Sometimes I find myself committing to things both personally and professionally while at the same time thinking, I don't want to do that! How do you stop that? Is this just part of being an adult ... or is it still early enough to break out of this pattern?
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Weddings, Oh My!
I really must do a better job at the up keep of this blog. I also need to figure out some way to push this information out to you people so that you don't have to continue to check back in here. Anyone know how to set up an RSS feed?
There is really so much going on these days, which is why it makes it hard to find the time to blog. The most important of these things is that two of my bestest (I know that's not really a word) friends, Allison (and KC) & Sabrina (and Conor) are engaged. How exciting is that?! I won't even get personal, and tell you all how the boys did it. (KC proposed to Allison standing in front of the Lake with a row of tea light candles. Conor proposed to Sabrina on a bridge over a Koi pond in Hawaii. Heck, I've had to keep enough secrets these past few months, I can't do it anymore! It's pretty romantic stuff!) I really, couldn't be more ecstatic for the soon to be brides and their soon to be husbands.
It's just so weird that in our small little group of friends from college we've gone all this time with one proposal (and subsequent marriage) and then wham, bam, thank you ma'am ... there are two more within 72 hours of each other. Crazy how the world works out like that! We're totally getting to that age where there will be more and more weddings to go to each year. And then there will be more and more baby showers! That's crazy ... I can't think about baby showers. I can handle my friends getting married, I can not handle them pregnant and unable to drink chardonnay and gossip with me! And it's very important they keep me in mind when making these decisions.
Any how, the next year is going to be so much fun! We already have a weekend planned in LA to wedding dress shop. I can't wait! Counting down the days!
There is really so much going on these days, which is why it makes it hard to find the time to blog. The most important of these things is that two of my bestest (I know that's not really a word) friends, Allison (and KC) & Sabrina (and Conor) are engaged. How exciting is that?! I won't even get personal, and tell you all how the boys did it. (KC proposed to Allison standing in front of the Lake with a row of tea light candles. Conor proposed to Sabrina on a bridge over a Koi pond in Hawaii. Heck, I've had to keep enough secrets these past few months, I can't do it anymore! It's pretty romantic stuff!) I really, couldn't be more ecstatic for the soon to be brides and their soon to be husbands.
It's just so weird that in our small little group of friends from college we've gone all this time with one proposal (and subsequent marriage) and then wham, bam, thank you ma'am ... there are two more within 72 hours of each other. Crazy how the world works out like that! We're totally getting to that age where there will be more and more weddings to go to each year. And then there will be more and more baby showers! That's crazy ... I can't think about baby showers. I can handle my friends getting married, I can not handle them pregnant and unable to drink chardonnay and gossip with me! And it's very important they keep me in mind when making these decisions.
Any how, the next year is going to be so much fun! We already have a weekend planned in LA to wedding dress shop. I can't wait! Counting down the days!
Friday, March 21, 2008
Tired of Tires
I haven't had a chance to write anything in a while. It's been two weeks. I'm sure you have all been dying to know what I have been up to ... what my ego is thinking, how happy is the 40% of my life I can control. Well, the last two weeks have been a whirl wind of amazing events. Some of those events deserve their own blog post. So first, I will start with some humor.
People are always dying to hear Gary stories. For those of you who don't know, Gary is my father. For a man of so few words, there are so many words that can be used to describe him (some of them inappropriate to share publicly) and he plays the staring role in some of the funniest stories I have to share.
Last week my father very generously allowed me to borrow his truck to drive to Tahoe. I recently purchased a new SUV myself, however felt it was unnecessary to spend $2,000 extra dollars on four wheel drive. Essentially I have an SUV that can not be used as an SUV. I digress. So last Thursday morning I woke up at 6am and drove down to San Jose before work ... dropped off my dog, traded cars, and went back to SF for work. Fun! When I got there to pick up the car he let's me know that I need to make sure to check the oil (he apparently has not had time to do so) as it may need more. Fine ... I can handle that. However, around 1pm my loving and wonderful father called me to let me know that he forgot to tell me that there was a nail in one of the tires ... he got it there about 2 months ago ... he couldn't remember which one, but I should probably have it fixed before I drive to Tahoe. Several things run through my head here.
The drive up to Tahoe is painless. We exit the 89 and are so excited to have a cold glass of beer with our lunch that we have been talking about for the last hour of the drive. Then I run over a rock. I'd like to call it a small boulder. An exclamation point on the dash lights up and so does the front right tire on the dash. Great! So we stop at the gas station, fill up ... argue with the cashier on whether or not my car is a truck or an SUV ... and then have the now flat tire looked at.
The tire is toast. Rock punctured the side wall (I have no idea what this means) and it can not be replaced. I asked them if we could order another. They tell me yes ... but it will take several days, maybe a week. They tell me that these are high performance tires and they are not kept stocked in many places. Think back to my father's daily routine ... does he really need the damn high performance tires. NO. Willow Glen is not that rough! He likes them because they are shiny. He is 64 and he is rolling on dubs. It's ridiculous. People in Tahoe move and think very slow. They weren't offering me any solutions. If you know me, you can imagine how happy I was at the progress we were making. I can't even put the spare on the tire because the spare is smaller than the tires and it will throw off the alignment of the car. So my father has a spare that is useless. Excellent. Allison, Allie and I have to go to an auto parts store (after we add air to the tire for the 4th time) buy some sort of glue, and apply it. Allison gladly accepted this chore.
Brady was in Sacramento at about this time. His car of boys called around places in Sacramento and was fortunately able to find a tire that they can pick up and bring to me. Phew! That night, Brady wanted to put the spare on the car so that we could drive it back to the gas station in the morning. It took approximately 6 guys and 45 minutes outside in the snow to determine that they could not take the lug nuts off of these high performance tires. So we decide we'll just call AAA in the morning.
AAA is called. When they get there the driver laughs. There is nothing he can do with this car and it's high performance tires either. Wonderful! They have a policy not to tow cars with these tires. If we wanted it towed TWO miles, it would cost $160.00. WHAT?! He could, however, put air in the tire and follow us to the gas station ... which in the end worked. We stood in 32 degree weather for 30 minutes as they changed the tire and all was well again.
24 hours and $250 later the car was ready to go. When I tell all this to my father and let him know how difficult his tires are to fix he simply replies "Well, maybe you shouldn't have run over the rock."
I leave you with those wise words of advice.
People are always dying to hear Gary stories. For those of you who don't know, Gary is my father. For a man of so few words, there are so many words that can be used to describe him (some of them inappropriate to share publicly) and he plays the staring role in some of the funniest stories I have to share.
Last week my father very generously allowed me to borrow his truck to drive to Tahoe. I recently purchased a new SUV myself, however felt it was unnecessary to spend $2,000 extra dollars on four wheel drive. Essentially I have an SUV that can not be used as an SUV. I digress. So last Thursday morning I woke up at 6am and drove down to San Jose before work ... dropped off my dog, traded cars, and went back to SF for work. Fun! When I got there to pick up the car he let's me know that I need to make sure to check the oil (he apparently has not had time to do so) as it may need more. Fine ... I can handle that. However, around 1pm my loving and wonderful father called me to let me know that he forgot to tell me that there was a nail in one of the tires ... he got it there about 2 months ago ... he couldn't remember which one, but I should probably have it fixed before I drive to Tahoe. Several things run through my head here.
- Dad, what have you been doing for the past two months? My father is partially retired. He starts his day with golden tee - has lunch around noon with friends - naps at 3 - and then waits for my mother to come home and make him dinner. How is that he didn't have the time to fix the tire?
- Where in the heck am I going to go to get a tire fixed after work in San Francisco? I am leaving at 7am the next morning ... I still need to go to costco, cost plus, trader joes and stop by KC's all before 7:30pm.
The drive up to Tahoe is painless. We exit the 89 and are so excited to have a cold glass of beer with our lunch that we have been talking about for the last hour of the drive. Then I run over a rock. I'd like to call it a small boulder. An exclamation point on the dash lights up and so does the front right tire on the dash. Great! So we stop at the gas station, fill up ... argue with the cashier on whether or not my car is a truck or an SUV ... and then have the now flat tire looked at.
The tire is toast. Rock punctured the side wall (I have no idea what this means) and it can not be replaced. I asked them if we could order another. They tell me yes ... but it will take several days, maybe a week. They tell me that these are high performance tires and they are not kept stocked in many places. Think back to my father's daily routine ... does he really need the damn high performance tires. NO. Willow Glen is not that rough! He likes them because they are shiny. He is 64 and he is rolling on dubs. It's ridiculous. People in Tahoe move and think very slow. They weren't offering me any solutions. If you know me, you can imagine how happy I was at the progress we were making. I can't even put the spare on the tire because the spare is smaller than the tires and it will throw off the alignment of the car. So my father has a spare that is useless. Excellent. Allison, Allie and I have to go to an auto parts store (after we add air to the tire for the 4th time) buy some sort of glue, and apply it. Allison gladly accepted this chore.
Brady was in Sacramento at about this time. His car of boys called around places in Sacramento and was fortunately able to find a tire that they can pick up and bring to me. Phew! That night, Brady wanted to put the spare on the car so that we could drive it back to the gas station in the morning. It took approximately 6 guys and 45 minutes outside in the snow to determine that they could not take the lug nuts off of these high performance tires. So we decide we'll just call AAA in the morning.
AAA is called. When they get there the driver laughs. There is nothing he can do with this car and it's high performance tires either. Wonderful! They have a policy not to tow cars with these tires. If we wanted it towed TWO miles, it would cost $160.00. WHAT?! He could, however, put air in the tire and follow us to the gas station ... which in the end worked. We stood in 32 degree weather for 30 minutes as they changed the tire and all was well again.
24 hours and $250 later the car was ready to go. When I tell all this to my father and let him know how difficult his tires are to fix he simply replies "Well, maybe you shouldn't have run over the rock."
I leave you with those wise words of advice.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
My Ego
As you all know, I am reading A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose. This book was a little hard to get in to at first. There was all this talk of Ego and letting go of it, and the type of control it has over me. I was really confused by the way the author was describing the ego, and the way I was supposed to think about it. And the suddenly, things started to click. I just started reading these sentences and having (as we call it in the office) my AH-HA moment.
The first time I had this moment was in the section called, The Background of Unhappiness. Now generally, I don’t consider myself to be that unhappy of a person. But I definitely have my moments of unrest. I am simultaneously reading the book. The How of Happiness (I’m not depressed I swear, this one is for a speaker at work) and in taking a quiz, I found out that I am less happy than the average person. Why? Well, I think Eckhart Tolle’s book help to realize the answer to that question for me. On page 113 Tolle posed the question, “Do you often experience a feeling of discontent that could best be described as a kind of background resentment?” Background resentment looks something like this:
"There is something that needs to happen in my life before I can be at peace (happy fulfilled, etc.). And I resent that it hasn’t happened yet. Maybe my resentment will finally make it happen."
“Something you (or I) did, said, or failed to do in the past is preventing me from being at peace now.”
“What you are doing or failing to do now is preventing me from being at peace.”
This is me. I harbor these feelings about a lot of things. Uncontrollably. I want to get married. I want to buy a house. I want a promotion. I want to do all of these things, and I subconsciously resent that they haven’t happened. I also tend to place blame on other people's actions for my own unhappiness, which is clearly not right. The message I got from reading this section was not to give up on these dreams, it’s important to have dreams and goals and all of those things, but I shouldn’t let it prevent me from being happy in the now. In the How of Happiness, I read that 40% of our happiness in life is based solely on how we chose to react to certain situations. 40% of our happiness is totally controllable. (50% is genetic and 10% is circumstantial). 40% is a significant amount that I can control. So I have taken back the control over this 40%. Only I can do this. We as individuals can not depend on other people to make us happy. It’s not their job. They have to worry about their own 40% of controllable happiness.
I like that I know this now. I think that it will not only make me a happier person, but the people around me happier as well. Happy people are just more fun to be around! It’s true.
The first time I had this moment was in the section called, The Background of Unhappiness. Now generally, I don’t consider myself to be that unhappy of a person. But I definitely have my moments of unrest. I am simultaneously reading the book. The How of Happiness (I’m not depressed I swear, this one is for a speaker at work) and in taking a quiz, I found out that I am less happy than the average person. Why? Well, I think Eckhart Tolle’s book help to realize the answer to that question for me. On page 113 Tolle posed the question, “Do you often experience a feeling of discontent that could best be described as a kind of background resentment?” Background resentment looks something like this:
"There is something that needs to happen in my life before I can be at peace (happy fulfilled, etc.). And I resent that it hasn’t happened yet. Maybe my resentment will finally make it happen."
“Something you (or I) did, said, or failed to do in the past is preventing me from being at peace now.”
“What you are doing or failing to do now is preventing me from being at peace.”
This is me. I harbor these feelings about a lot of things. Uncontrollably. I want to get married. I want to buy a house. I want a promotion. I want to do all of these things, and I subconsciously resent that they haven’t happened. I also tend to place blame on other people's actions for my own unhappiness, which is clearly not right. The message I got from reading this section was not to give up on these dreams, it’s important to have dreams and goals and all of those things, but I shouldn’t let it prevent me from being happy in the now. In the How of Happiness, I read that 40% of our happiness in life is based solely on how we chose to react to certain situations. 40% of our happiness is totally controllable. (50% is genetic and 10% is circumstantial). 40% is a significant amount that I can control. So I have taken back the control over this 40%. Only I can do this. We as individuals can not depend on other people to make us happy. It’s not their job. They have to worry about their own 40% of controllable happiness.
I like that I know this now. I think that it will not only make me a happier person, but the people around me happier as well. Happy people are just more fun to be around! It’s true.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Flying at 33,000 Feet
As I write this now I am on my way down to Los Angelos. I wish I could say I was going down there to do something glamorous … but I am just going for work. My 3rd trip down there this month in fact. While the work part is not so fun, I’m excited to see Allison! We’re going to hang out in my schwanky hotel, order room service and watch Lost. We’re livin large folks!
While I have a fun evening ahead of me, I have had a day from hell. I spent the morning in a very serious internal battle. It’s very distracting to work when your heart and your head are fighting. Do you know what I am talking about? The internal battle is over me … my head was asking my heart, How did we end up here? (I know it's cheesy, but work with me here) I don’t really get myself. I like to consider myself to be a pretty competent and confident woman. I’m smart. I have a decent job. I’m not unfortunate looking. Yet, sometimes I find my self wrestling with the insecurities of an adolescent child. I have a real issue with trust. The issue... I don’t know how to do it. I’m not sure why. It’s not like the people in my life are un-trustworthy. There are people in my past who have been untrustworthy … so is that what makes me second guess the people in my present? It must, right? And if that’s the case, then how do I shake it? I try so hard, and yet I constantly have this little devil of a voice in side my head telling me not to. When do you get to the point when you’re just comfortable in your own skin? I guess it’s different for everyone. Most of the time I think I am, but then I have these moments of sheer doubt and total break down.
Maybe I need a therapist.
Nah, that’s what I have this blog for. Lucky for you all, I can’t afford a therapist and therefore you get to read about my mental breakdowns.
Oh, and to top my mental breakdown off, when I got to the airport this afternoon, my flight was canceled. Awesome! However, while I was standing in line I stood behind this adorable young family of 4. They were trying to keep their kids entertained as we stood in line trying to find out what all the delays were about (and I was trying to go stand by on another flight). Anyhow, the Mother was trying to get her kids to say things that rhyme, like cat and hat, dog and fog. So one of the words the Mother said was, eye. The little boy (about 3) repeated the word EYE, and then looked at his Mom and shouted CANDY. EYE - CANDY. I laughed out loud ... I couldn't help it!
While I have a fun evening ahead of me, I have had a day from hell. I spent the morning in a very serious internal battle. It’s very distracting to work when your heart and your head are fighting. Do you know what I am talking about? The internal battle is over me … my head was asking my heart, How did we end up here? (I know it's cheesy, but work with me here) I don’t really get myself. I like to consider myself to be a pretty competent and confident woman. I’m smart. I have a decent job. I’m not unfortunate looking. Yet, sometimes I find my self wrestling with the insecurities of an adolescent child. I have a real issue with trust. The issue... I don’t know how to do it. I’m not sure why. It’s not like the people in my life are un-trustworthy. There are people in my past who have been untrustworthy … so is that what makes me second guess the people in my present? It must, right? And if that’s the case, then how do I shake it? I try so hard, and yet I constantly have this little devil of a voice in side my head telling me not to. When do you get to the point when you’re just comfortable in your own skin? I guess it’s different for everyone. Most of the time I think I am, but then I have these moments of sheer doubt and total break down.
Maybe I need a therapist.
Nah, that’s what I have this blog for. Lucky for you all, I can’t afford a therapist and therefore you get to read about my mental breakdowns.
Oh, and to top my mental breakdown off, when I got to the airport this afternoon, my flight was canceled. Awesome! However, while I was standing in line I stood behind this adorable young family of 4. They were trying to keep their kids entertained as we stood in line trying to find out what all the delays were about (and I was trying to go stand by on another flight). Anyhow, the Mother was trying to get her kids to say things that rhyme, like cat and hat, dog and fog. So one of the words the Mother said was, eye. The little boy (about 3) repeated the word EYE, and then looked at his Mom and shouted CANDY. EYE - CANDY. I laughed out loud ... I couldn't help it!
Monday, February 11, 2008
Awakening to My Life's Purpose
I'm a sucker.
I'm a sucker for Oprah.
I'm a sucker for Oprah and her darn book clubs. For those of you who don't follow like I do, Oprah's new book this month is Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth, Awakening to your Life's Purpose. Normally I'm not really in to these self help, self discovery books. But since I myself am on a self discovery journey of a sort, I decided to buy it. And not only did I buy the book, but I joined the "class" that Oprah is hosting every Monday night for 10 weeks with the author, Eckhart Tolle. Class starts March 3. I don't really know why I want to do this, or if I'll even stick with it.
It's my little sociological experiment.
What is a class taught by Oprah like? Well I am going to find out, and I'll write about it here. I'll share what I learn ... and I'll leave the door open for you to comment. Tell me I'm a nerd, tell me I have no life ... tell me you want to read too! Say whatever you want, I think we might all learn something.
Page 1 starts tomorrow!
I'm a sucker for Oprah.
I'm a sucker for Oprah and her darn book clubs. For those of you who don't follow like I do, Oprah's new book this month is Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth, Awakening to your Life's Purpose. Normally I'm not really in to these self help, self discovery books. But since I myself am on a self discovery journey of a sort, I decided to buy it. And not only did I buy the book, but I joined the "class" that Oprah is hosting every Monday night for 10 weeks with the author, Eckhart Tolle. Class starts March 3. I don't really know why I want to do this, or if I'll even stick with it.
It's my little sociological experiment.
What is a class taught by Oprah like? Well I am going to find out, and I'll write about it here. I'll share what I learn ... and I'll leave the door open for you to comment. Tell me I'm a nerd, tell me I have no life ... tell me you want to read too! Say whatever you want, I think we might all learn something.
Page 1 starts tomorrow!
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